I found a new job about a month ago–contract worker rather. It’s not exactly what I have in mind, job description and what I am handling now is quite different. Still, I am just glad to have found a job and have an income. It’s tough juggling a job and still finding time to work on things that I want to do, like: Photography, writing, journaling, traveling, painting, etc.

How do I find time to enrich my life with my passion for all my hobbies? Sad to say, I happen to be a procrastinator and it will take a lot more to lure me out of my laziness. That’s not to say I’m not working on my short-comings, fact is, I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want from myself; I’m definitely going take my own pace and not stress myself up–that’s not going to help me have a life worth living. I have to identify my top priorities and work on it.

Top of my list will have to be a stable job. Those who have read Joseph Campbell and other bloggers dealing with GTD, productivity, get rich doing the things that you like, will imagine me taking a step back. That’s partly true, but no one can tell me how to lead my life.

I just want a simple life and have some time to do the things that I love to do. What’s so bad about keeping an 8 to 5 job? It simplifies my life a lot more. I’m not harboring the grandeur of working 2 hours a day and making more money than I can spend–You’re only as rich as you spend.

I’ve seen so much over 5 years of self-employment, suffered for my obstinacy, I’m happy to say that I’m free. Ambition has been a thorn in the side of my neck for the most of my life. Maybe I’m not cut from a strong genetic line, but I tried, and I’m tired for the time being.

Meanwhile, I want to pursue fun things in life.

Hello readers that don’t exist yet!

I’ve been forced to quit my job, broke off a 10 year relationship. Just as well, since my life had been nothing but a mess—but I’m making a change now.

When you have bad things happen to you more than a few times in a row, you start to think about what you’ve done wrong. As you take a break, you realise that what you really need is to throw it all away—the good and the bad—take a long break. That way, you will see your life from a detached perspective. Recognise that life deals you a bad hand most of the time, but we’re going to find out how a different way to live life.

It’s time to drop everything if you’ve been tired, frustrated and suicidal. Let’s not mourn the past but learn from it and move forward.